Runaway

I have no idea

of what is happening to me

feels like i'm losing myself

feels like something is crushing me from each directions

like something is tearing me apart

like something is ripping me off

life is hard

and it gets hard 

when I chose not to

share it with others

because

being a burden to others is something I will always try to avoid

even I am aware

that

I will drown in the ocean of my troubled feelings

if I 

hold still to my principle

how I wish

there will be a chance

for me

to find a place  

where people could find me not

an escapade

that will offers me

tranquility that I seek

and

I will 

runaway....................................................................