Berjuta kata tak cukup untuk

Melukis indahMu.

Line fav since the past few weeks. Tengok langit, bukit, bintang, matahari, bulan, titisan hujan, orang..semualah!..almost everything I see, I will automatically recall this line. Indah ~~~

Randomness

Last semester punya drawing. Duduk sorang-sorang dalam library, nampak macam stok budak rajin study je duduk dalam library tapi orang tak tahu, stok rajin melukis pun duduk dalam library jugak !

Whatever it is, I'll try to give it a happy thought so it wont burden me. I'm afraid of over thinking as it may lead to a negative assumption and thoughts and surely that will bring no good.

My dua' goes to all Muslims that are being oppressed throughout the globe right now especially for those in Syria and Palestine. We share the same pain.

May glory be with us: the Muslims, ameen.

Just finished reading two books that I've been immersed in since the past Raya Haji week. Different genre, language and setting. One is fiction, the other one is reality-based writing. Dua-dua pun berbaloi. I'm amazed with a character in that Malay fiction, her name is Siti .. err Siti something, nama klasik sangat till I cant even recall her name. She is a brave, full of determination, pious, obedient and such a delicate young lady. I adore. This book is way different from.. y'know, that kind of writing, mushy-lovey-dovey-fantasy-over-reality typical jiwang writing,  Lain. Dia macam spark something inside me. Satu lagi buku, genre..hm parenting satire maybe? Not sure. Title: Battle Hymn of The Mother Tiger. It's worth my time I spent to read that piece. Need to get a copy for myself. 

Ubat Hati

Qasidah yang sama. Pelantunnya saja yang beda. Siapa pun jua pelantunnya, this is one of my fav qasidah. Ever.

Always wanted to attend Majlis Ta'lim Darul Murtadza ni. Apa daya, rezeki masih tak berkunjung tiba. Sabar saja la jawabnya. Hmm

اللهم صل على سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم

Headshot

Tanya pada diri ,mengapa sengsara.

Nanti jawab diri.

Angkara dunia.

Dunia nanti kata ,jangan tuduh aku.

Aku hanya alat.

Bukan tujuanmu.

- Al Fadhil Ustaz Noor Deros-

Sumber: sini

Nak jadi baik.

Had a really mature and deep conversation with my kakak. I called her kakak because I have no kakak. and she is a few months older than me.*ha apadia? Stop calling you kakak? Alahai poor me, got no kakak. Boleh la eaa, please *wink.

Basically, we talked about our future. I cant believe we conversed about this kakakk! Rasa macam ya ALLAH, kenapa cakap pasal ni, matangnya alahaiiii. Kami bercakap pasal nak jadi baik through and through. Macam mana boleh cakap pasal ni? haa at the beginning, kami ni sembang kosong pasal orang-orang yang baik, well at least baik pada mata kami la. Ada la sorang ni, ish memang baik gamaknya. Cakna pasal isu semasa, isu Palestine, Syria, isu ummah la to be exact. Looks can be deceiving. Why? sebab by the way this person dressed, dia nampak urban tau, bukan stok pakai seluar slack dengan berkopiah,  simply put, bukan stok ustaz-ustaz la pakaiannya. I think he's adapting to his environment. I'm not being judgmental, hehe. Tapi orang perempuan, no exception, noo. Kena berpakaian molek. Lagipun, banyak sangat mata buaya, depa ni kalau tengok orang, tak cover dah. Mata tu duk X-ray apa taktau, baling fail baru tau, amboi dia! Makanya perempuan kena la tutup betul-betul. Untuk keselamatan ummah sejagat. To protect their chastity. Kan kan kan ? ALLAH pun sayang nanti =)

Eh panjang pulak mukadimahnya, haa berbalik kepada orang itu, firasatku kuat mengatakan dia seorang yang baik, insyaALLAH. Tapi tak la letak expectation tinggi-tinggi. Kenal pun tak,Cuma ada rasa hormat. Adore pun ada sikit la.hehe. Adore sebab kami dua orang pun nak jadi baik macam dia. Eh kenapa dia? Kenapa tak jadikan Rasulullah sebagai role-model? Memang. Memang Rasulullah itu sanjungan, tapi tak salahkan adore perlakuan orang-orang yang baik. Ok back to our topic, timbullah satu isu. kenapa nak jadi baik? Ini soalannya. Kami berdua pun berfikir-fikir. Jawapanku pada kakak....

 "Aku nak jadi baik sebab aku nak jadi baik la, bukan sebab fikir nanti kalau baik, dapat la suami baik macam 'itu' (siapa 'itu' tu? haa ada laa). Budak muda sekarang bukan main, nak jadi baik sebab nak pasangan baik, kat facebook tu, duk gigih mencari imam kepada setiap solat fardhu la, cari makmum la, itu la ini la. Err bukan orang lelaki supposed solat berjemaah di masjid ke? hehe aku nanti, kalau ada rezeki menikah, aku kata kat suamiku,"abang, abang pi solat kat masjid nahh, lelaki ni tempat dia kat masjid, farah tunggu abang kat rumah (ouch this is soo not me, pengsan!). Ok,bukan tak boleh, aku tahu tu fitrah, untuk disayangi dan menyayangi (juling mata tengok ayat ni kat skrin, yeakk) tapi prioritize your priorities laa. Ready ke? Mental fizikal semua ready ke? Ada ilmu dah ke? Sebab tu niat kena betul. Aku taknak macamtu. Sebab we never know what's gonna happen tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow. Sempat ke.. tak sempat ke nak settle down for good, we have no idea. Aku nak jadi baik sebab Allah. Aku nak jadi baik Lillahitaala. Takdak niat lain. Aku nak jadi baik sebab itu bekalan aku kat sana nanti... blablabla..Panjang tak larat nak taip eh.

Kakak pun agreed with me. We start to ponder upon our life. Mencongak-congak masa depan. Ending bagaimana? Baik kah atau sebaliknya? Semoga yang baik-baik saja, insyaALLAH.

Panjang lagi tapi yang lain kena censored. Dikhuatiri top secret yang selama ini disimpan kemas akan pecah berserakan. *fragile sangat ke your secret tu sampai nak pecah berserakan. eleh !

Strangers

Nasyid Ghuraba'. Ghuraba' means strangers. Nasyid ni pengganti untuk halwa telinga harini. Kelmarin asyik dengar Our Waking Hour punya cover, harini kita tuned in nasheed pulak. Haih tak ghuraba' lagi saya nih T_T . Ini Fatih Seferagic's voice. He's of Bosnian heritage. Germany born and now settled in the States. Seorang hafiz. I wonder how he survive kat US nu, orang yang hafal Quran ni kena jaga semua aspek. Mata tak boleh liar, makan kena jaga, kena rajin tasmi' bacaan dan sebagainya. Silap haribulan, keluar rumah, habis lupa ayat yang dihafal. Dah kenapa pulak macamtu? yelaa semua orang tak cukup kain.ehh tak bukan semua, sesetengah, iya sesetengah.  Kena la jaga mata apa semua, nanti hafalan terbang melayang. Yang tak hafal Quran pun kena jaga jugak semua itu ( tuju untuk diri sendiri, ouchh ! )

Nak jadi Ghuraba' ~~~

This is the meaning of the nasheed. In English.

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path

If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

We never care about the chains, rather we'll continue forever
We never care about the chains, rather we'll continue forever

So let us make jihad, and battle, and fight from the start
Ghurabaa`, this is how they are free in the enslaved world

So let us make jihad, and battle, and fight from the start
Ghurabaa`, this is how they are free in the enslaved world

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

How many times we remembered a time when we were happy
In the book of Allah, we recite in the morning and the evening

How many times we remembered a time when we were happy
In the book of Allah, we recite in the morning and the evening

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path

If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

Seperti biasa, no class on Friday. Tapi pagi-pagi lagi ada consultation. Petang pulak pergi library. Plan nak balik before seven tapi tak dapat laa, pukul sepuluh jugak baliknya. Asyik lapar hujan-hujan nih, rosak plan, konon nak watch my food intake, tapi ahhh. kalah dengan perut yang kerjanya growling. Dear stomach, could you please stop the growling activity? 

Gonna talk about songs.

Hmm I break the promise I've made to myself, janji dengan diri sendiri nak kurangkan dengar lagu-lagu yang urmm..lagu-lagu yang tak polish heart..that kind of songs, but then sangkut dengan this one cover. Cover lagu Adele tu, Set Fire To The Rain. Well I would say that these fellas's version, it's better than the original version..in a way laa. Vokal ? hah amazing! Truly it is! Part korus tu, ya ampunn goosebumps kot. Terkejut dia tarik suara macam tu! Sekali sekala takpa gamaknya dengar lagu genre ni. Haa caught red handed ! Nampak sangat I'm trying to justify my action. Am I?